the new sunrise

i had my life back

woots had plenty of fun the last 3 days!!

thurs: badminton!

omg my muscles are still aching now! >< sigh. i walk as if i'm limping xD but i like! havent been exercising for soooooo sooooo long (: no wonder i'm so unfit now. but i'll be going for hiphop dance classes soon! next fri 7.30 at studiowu! (: yay. have been saying i want to do it for so long and now i'm finally down to doing it :D

after that leong zp sam and me went pizza hut to eat! i miss student prices T_T all 4 of us ate a total of only 33 bucks! how cheap's that. and i was damn full x)

after that went zp's hse for the first time (sighh. sign of no-life-ness for the past 4 mnths) and then sew bears for caihua's bday present! i havent sewed for such a long time, and i realise i really love doing such things! actly i think i'm rly domestic, like i like baking, cooking, sewing etc. well actly not really la, i mean being really domestic mean you'd probably have to like the cleaning up bit too. which is like =.=

fri: movie!

iron man 2 was GOOOD (: it has been a really really long time since i watched a movie, so iron man was very exciting (: i mean its the typical marvel comic hero, but i loved the quirks, the jokes, really hilarious moments, moving ones and of course those epic action scenes! i was pretty impressed with the CG and everything. it's filled with grandoise and coolness (: yepp so i recommend you to watch iron man 2! i mean at least i really enjoyed it and its worth the 9 bucks at cineleisure (:

now i want to watch iron man 1 as well! hopefully they'll have it on mioTV

saturday: outing + caihua bday party!

met jy and gab at cathay starbucks. talked and planned our taiwan trip!! yayness but there are still a lot of things not settled. anyone knows taiwan well? recommend me some good local food! and someone pls tell me if sunmoonlake and similar natural attractions require some entrance fee?! cant find anything online as of now ><

went to caihua's house at potong pasir around 6.30 and finally got to see so many classmates again! i kinda missed everyone x) its really good to see so many ppl again. shld have another class outing soon!

angeline's cake was OMG. its really pretty and in a shape of a huge "A". its so special! all of us were like wow (: the food's really good, and got ai4 xin1 tian2 tang1 from her mom. really nice and nutritious :D

talked with ppl for very long and did a lot of catching up (: seems like so many ppl got into nus med! my class alr got like 5 ppl. and there are others who havent checked yet -.- lol. they say they prefer to live in denial for now. quite smart actually. but i guess i would have to make up my mind really really soon ):

schsp how how how how???!!! sighhh. uk/canada/s'pore??? i think i prob already have some idea and preference, but i cant seem to bring myself to reject some of them >< sighhhhhh

but still now i'm like gg out almost everyday! xD yea and spending lots of mooolah too lol. shld try to get tuition soon. and prob do some temp! if possible la. but i still have a lot of my own stuff to do like:

1) pack my books/worksheets/files - either throw, give, donate or sell
2) clean up my old desktop. i have so many things inside i need to backup and transfer, including my itunes library :O i want it back but it's so troublesome ):
3) clean up my room! well it's not that messy la, but still....

upcoming!: dinner, outing, movie (kick-ass!), lunch, DANCE CLASSES! yay (:

it's great to have so much time :D haha.

oh wait i need a dermatologist appointmt o.O shall go back to RH

 

 

 

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just made an appt with dr wong at raffles skin centre which has combined with aesthetics centre o.O lol. that's pretty strange ;p

and it's also really strange if i am to be called "dr huang".... *shudders* LOL i guess i should be really happy, but the truth hasnt sunk in yet x) then again, i may not be becoming a doctor that soon xP sighh. i guess it's like picking the easy way vs the overseas experience or the hard-aka-have-to-take-more-exams way x)

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how now brown cow? local MBBS?

sometimes I really wonder what has fate set out for me. I'm a free thinker, so I dont really have any omniscient being to thank, but I still must give thanks to whatever power that is moving the universe for giving me SO MANY OPPORTUNITIES!

well it's a good thing and a bad thing, because obviously now I have the luxury to choose what I want. but on the flip side, I HAVE NO IDEA IF THIS IS WHAT I WANT!! T_T

confronted with all these options, it is honestly tough to make up my mind. there is bound to be gives and takes (or only 1 take), but it feels so hard just to make that decision.

as of now, I'm pretty sure I want to do med/dentistry, just that since nus med offered, I wont get any news from nus dent xD yea somehow I seemed to be more and more inclined towards dentistry. the nature of the job, job prospects as well as the remuneration certainly sounds more attractive. havent talked to that many local dentists, but seems like local med grads are not giving very favourable reviews >< dentistry is a lot less talked about than med, so not sure what's the studying and student life like for these undergrads.

if I do med now, I can be a doctor sooner. I mean I literally CAN already be a doctor (if I pass and everything xD lol). if I go overseas (i.e. mcgill) to do neurosci now, I would have to later take the MCAT and then apply to their med school, which again involves hell lot of application, references, testimonial and personal statements. not to mention fabulous grades. so now i'm really conflicted, being presented with such good opportunities ><

I know I really want an overseas experience. it just makes me feel excited to be part of a different culture in a different place far from home, living independently and creating new memories. but at the same time, I'm srsly giving up such a good (and hard to come by) opportunity! I guess med wld have rejected thousands others who applied. I should srsly count my blessings.

so now I'm at a loss of what to do. the studying and housemanship in a local context kinda turns me off a little, from all those "horror" stories from the seniors, and I'll be stuck in singapore (which MAY not be a bad thing). but doing an undergrad degree first wld mean more years of studying, and obviously I wont know if I can eventually get into med school. argh the uncertainty. but the bright side is, I can really figure out if I want to be a doctor, or perhaps I wld end up being a dentist, or even clinical research (thinks of astar schsp =.= sigh. I feel so bad for dao-ing them) then again if I really dont like the nature of the job, I can still switch to law or economics. so the flexibility is a plus for me, since I'm always so undecided and always seeking diversity and greater freedom in my range of options.

so HOW NOW BROWN COW? 

the fat days

sheesh I should really stop eating =.=

since work ended on mon, have been staying home these two days, and I literally eat all the time = no self control!!!!  =(

shall not stay at home all day, if not I'll prob gain like 5kg within a month xP

(great now i feel like eating cookies =X lol)

shall bring my life back on track! good thing tmr got badminton outing! wheeee :D shld work some exercise into my daily routine... jogging, swimming etc. oh and I wanna go for dance classes! have been saying that since jan -.- sighhh

shld start looking for ways to earn moolah again... shall start finding tuition, but I'm kinda lazy at the moment xD sigh. anyone knows friends or relatives who needs tuition???!!! lol

was surfing fb, and saw the chorale belgium trip photos! omg that place is totally gorgeous! so pretty (((: and this year seems like there's more time to play, cos their competition ended on the 3rd day = 4/5 days of relaxation and sightseeing! lucky pokks (:

looking forward to tmr and sat teoheng outing :D

oh and this morning woke up early and attempted to buy tix for jay chou concert. I think I'm very lucky, cos I managed to get 4 tix both times I tried to book, but too bad I got no OCBC credit card, and the cardholder is my friend's siblings friend..... lol so I guess it's not that safe.... well there's still next time! haha. then we'll get those 228 seats and be right in front! haha that'll be super cool (:

ok needa call some dance studios. and wake up early tmr! well not exactly. just need to be at cck cc at 1030 :D yea yea havent played badminton in a long long time... in fact havent exercised in.... FOUR FREAKING MONTHS!

omg. my adipose cells are well-fed indeed =.= sheesh

ok shall not sleep too late today (: but now i'm off to watch kaze no stigma! some anime that came out really long time ago, but it's nice :DD

 

music! i miss my itunes

omg i'm in love with this song! <33

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

talented! her voice is rly unique

 

Miley Cyrus Medley - Christina Grimmie (By Kurt Schneider)

and honestly itunes needs to do something about the un-transferability of the songs and its library! )= i want my library in my new laptop too

musings of a wanderer

current location: mcdonald's at causeway point

mood: zen (: (more or less)

It's great when I don't have to work (: At least a well deserved break on a public holiday! I know gab is still working but being paid double is cool too (: too bad RH doesn't have that, but since I'm leaving soon, I guess it doesn't really matter (:

 

backlog of photos

backlog of photos xD

2009 youthday outing

2009 dance night

 

primary school class gathering at vivo

 09S03L learning journey :D

Earth Day 60 min black out (:

2009 farewell assembly

RJ prom viva glam 2009 (:

 

say yay

SAY YAY!

CT2 is finally over! bad luck to those of us taking bio. had to wait for an extra day for liberation xD well that meant extra time to study, which can be a good thing or a bad thing (:

I think I'm feeling more relieved this time round as I really put in quite a lot of effort... a lot as compared to previous CTs and even promos xP I have never really been good with revision. usually I 'm quite concerned with doing tutorials on time and like taking down lots of notes, but whenever it comes to revision, I just cannot sit at my dest day after day to study, especially if all I do is trying to cram facts into my brain (like for bio xD). revision would probably be less of a chore if I did more exercises, but I didnt even have had the time for that for this CTs. everytime after exam I feel that I could have done more to revise, done more exercises, made better use of my time etc. well despite all that I still do the same thing for the next exam. seriously what's wrong with me? but i wonder if I would really get that much better by doing all those practice questions... but I guess they really do help, just that I havent really attempted. well there would always be regret if you havent given your all in something or knew you could have done more.

in another 6 months time we'll really be liberated. oh wait not really cos there are still scholarship applications and local uni applications. well, I'll be looking forward to that. really. maybe sometimes these things can get very troublesome and daunting. somehow I must be able to psycho myself into a better mental state and face things with enthusiam and positive energy :D haah. I guess I should just be less self conscious and go for it. I find that sometimes I hold back cos I'm not sure if others will do the same. but I guess if it's right or if it's about my own decision, I should just go for it. JUST DO IT (:

I hope it's not too late (:

 

back to blogosphere. lol.

haha back to blogosphere! lol. its been a long while since i last blogged

just looked at gab's lj! made me feel like blogging again (: i realised i'm not really catching up with friends much. i'm like quite isolated during the hols, cos i cannot sms with my phone, and i dont go on msn cos i dont feel like it xD

something quite exciting happened: i got a new layout for my room!

OK. its not exciting. but i still think its rather refreshing! since the stuff in my room has been moved about, it feels interesting now, compared to the old layout. we moved the piano out into the living room i.e. the neighbours can hear really well if you play horribly.

have been trying to be healthier. hmmm i hope this will work. i'm trying not to like eat too much (till i'm like super full), eat more fruits (yum!), exercise (i went jogging like twice last week?), MUG, sleep and wake up early.

ok the last 2 things havent materialized since its 12.30am now and the third last thing is crawling at snail pace which explains the anxiety (erm, ok not really feeling anxious at the moment)

sigh. my life is quite boring right? oh wells, no interesting stories, no broken family, no fantastic grades, no talents. i honestly think i deteoriated since secondary school. all i do nowadays is MUG and yet i dont do very well.

how on earth does ppl like _____, ______ and _______ do so many things at the same time and yet get fantastic grades? actually there's like hoards of such ppl in RJC which makes things all the worse!!! @$#@^!@%&@*%(!@#^*

 

god.

 

[the movie Wit, shown during GP, is really quiite touching and intellectual. quite sarcastic yet subtly probing and moving. the last bit came as a suprise. the class wonders if ms ho knew they had a scene like that......]

 

i need to PROCRASTINATE LESS. DO MORE. honestly i have no idea what happened to my holidays. mayb i should do a recount of my days like gab so i'll be ashamed and guilt-ridden after each post to remind me that that next day must be more productive. why carn i be more like the rest of the school? does everyone else really mugs??? OH NO.

 

erm current internet haunts: facebook, animeseason, youtube, mangafox, onemanga, mysoju, watch-movies.net, sogou.com (for the music)

 

current fav singer: lady gaga. as provocative as she is, i think she's really cool. should search for her video on youtube at the cherrytree recording studio. her acoustic version of poker face was AWESOME! seriously go watch it :D

 

i just watched spider lilies and ghosts of girlfriends past. well i think the poor quality kinda compromised the viewing pleasure. but the plots are quite good (: the latter's really funny at some parts. the former is well, should i say, thought provoking? its rather abstract in the way it is filmed, and it doesnt explain a lot of things and leaves it to the audience to decipher. which is what's cool about it (:

[chemistry is STILL on my table since MONDAY. and tmr i have 2 tuition sessions back to back. KILL ME. now]

hmm sometimes i wonder if ppl actually read this? oh well it doesnt matter (: haha. as long as i'm happy ranting myself away! whheeee

 

actually the reason i'm blogging is because NOTHING else seems interesting anymore: i facaebooked, animed, manga-ed, youtubed, mysoju-ed, mugged, ate, jogged, checked email, blog surfed etc etc but still nothing is really that exciting. such that i can look forward to? nowadays not many good shows/animes. they are either still broadcasting or wayyy to long for me to get addicted (then my CTs will really go down the drain) making notes used to be remotely "fun" with some satisfaction tt i mugged, but now its really driving me nuts. SO MUCH NOTES TO MAKE! NO TIME NO TIME. ok as compared to me typing my life again here, i should really either 1) sleep or 2) go back to mugging. and i have to say that productivity increases at night, well if i'm actually mugging (and not like blogging or watching shows xD)

 

i need to start doing something about uni and my failing SATs. its HONESTLY DEMORALISING.

term 1 officially over

its amazing how fast time passes by. when we were in sec sch we thought that university and the life beyond are light years away. but now, its just in 2 years' time. it makes me wonder what i have done for these years and what am i going to do in the future.

its surprisingly fast how the first term just went by like that. then the 2nd term will pass too. and then will be the FIRST COMMON TEST. and finally will be the PROMOS. it may just be march but honestly JC life passes (damn) fast. ITS UNBELIEVABLE!!! and i keep feeling that i'm just letting my time slowly slip away from me, like how sand slip through your fingers no matter how well you try to hold it.

i realise i'm really not young anymore. i'm going to be eighteen this year. and that sounds really old alr. i wish to be able to do something in my life that is impactful and memorable. or at least be proud of something i have done for the past 18 years. only when i reflect upon my life did i realise how little i have done, and also how sheltered our lives are. everything is done for us, or at least we dont have to worry about maintaining the house, doing all the housework, cos there will be our parents or maids to help. i wonder how i would be able to handle adult life. sounds tough doesnt it? when you enter the working life, your life would be full of expectations, or for your job at least, and failing is really not an option. i am rather glad that i can still fail things now and live life as per normal.

talking about failing. ECONS TEST WAS A DISASTER!!! i got 10min left to do 2 6m and 8m questions. BRILLIANT. i dont even know if what i wrote even answered the question, cos everything was just so hurried that i barely had time to think >< still its the first econs test so not so bad (:

but the bad thing is I AM NOT MOTIVATED TO STUDY ANYMORE!!!! yea like yanhan wrote we shouldnt be immune to failing! i should be sitting in a corner too and emo about how much harder i should work and not rejoice at the fact that i am sure gonna fail econs test.

not too good a sign for the start of the 2 year preparation for A levels huh.

i didnt revise for maths (ok tt's pardonable cos the test was unexpectantly brought forward), chem and especially econs. honestly, i think i was complacent about it, or rather i did not care if i passed or failed the paper. is it rg that made all the senses immune to failure or wat. honestly (as much as i complain after the test) i dont do much about it before the test. like i totally dint care! (ok bad attitude.) it is not a good start. therefore i am resovled to mug during the march hols. but whether i'll do it is another thing ><

anyway, on a MUCH HAPPIER NOTE, term one has officially ended!! :DD ok but still its mixed feelings, like on one hand time is passing too fast for my liking, but on the other i am quite glad that term one of sch has finally ended (: its so contradictory but watever.... i was so happy that econs test was over as it was the last test of the term!! happiness :DD then we had chorale!! ((: fun-ness (: but mayb its just because we havent seen the fierce side of mr toh YET. well but i still hope that doesnt change my perception of chorale (:

another thing i noticed about jc life is its rather EXPENSIVE. like i can spend 4 to 5 bucks just on food alone in school for a day. that's quite a lot of money, considering that i get 150 bucks a month now. and then there's the march hols which doesnt really improve the situation, taking into account that i'm going back rg for enrolment camp on mon, having KBOX on tues, and class bbq on wed. and probably other og outings and grassroots meetings in sch and chorale sessions and blyc stuff, its gonna be pretty intense with many days outside which mean money money money ><

and for the record i ate pizza hut twice this month!!! well i hardly ate in the pizza hut outlet for a FEW YEARS already. yea. and then we went to settler's last month for og outing and mind's last week for a blyc-linked meeting so to speak.

but still i have to say that jc life has its element of fun. mayb that's why it passes so quickly. but at the same time, i'm falling behind on my work as I HAVE NOT BEEN DOING HOMEWORK AT HOME AT ALL DURING THE WEEKDAYS FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS ALREADY!!!!!!! (screams at the ATROCITY of it all)

really. despite me being not hardworking for some periods in sec sch, this is been THE ULTIMATE!!! though i do do work in sch, i do none at home, which kinda offsets the balance just be a TEENY WEENY LITTLE BIT (i'm sure... LOL.) arghhh.... this is NOT working. officially.

BUT one productive thing i did today was i ran 2.4km!! in the school gym somemore!! lol. tt's quite short already, compared to the canoe ppl who fo like 4km every training o.O but i realised for me running on treadmill is alot easier than on the track, cos for some reason, i dint even feel like i have run for 18min at all!! but i guess it differs for everyone cos some ppl find running on treadmill much harder. oh it was my first time running for so long on a treadmill actually xD cos i dont usually have the privilege of going to a gym often. actually i have only been to one once, and that was in canada just last dec. see, how noob i am...

on another note, i should have signed up for rclf! lol... it looks like a lot of fun. and i think it would be a good experience for me, cos it'll probably be the first time i'm participating in this kind of thing. but too bad i dint sign up for it xP

well i just hope i would make more out of my life in rjc, or even out of life in general. and perhaps just try to enjoy march hols tt bit more (: or rather i think i would enjoy it so much that i would hardly do homework, which will prob be the case >< (bad amy, very bad) now with new found friends and many other acquaintances, who can very well become good friends, i really hope tt jc life can be a lot more meaningful than the past years of my life. but i guess i'm the only one who would be able to make a difference about my own life and how i take a view on different things. and i need to learn to MANAGE MY TIME and PRIORITISE. seriously. like how now i should be sleeping/doing work and NOT blogging or watching dramas >< (guilty guilty. xD)

tata then (:

the new beginning

after a very long time,i'm back to my blog (: no but i dont think i will actually update very often.

4 years of rgs are over and its already jc!! i always thought that jc ppl normally look very mature, but i dont even feel like i'm a jc student xP

and jc life passes so fast!! more than half a turn passed in the blink of an eye. orientation was barely over and now its already week 6 and soon after it would be A levels... the thought of it is so freaky.

now everyone's talking about like goals and the teachers were talking about what we want out of our 2 years in RJC. but there are just so many things in jc that are fun and interesting and i really want to join a lot of activities, ccas and enrichment programmes!! but i'm afraid that time will just slip out of my grasp and jc will be over before i know it...

lol. mayb i should mug less xD or reather me more efficient!! then i would be able to enjoy more of life. now life is presented with so many choices its just so hard to choose... sometimes you have the feeling you can do everything but at the same time you are afraid that you wont be handle it all... i hope these things get sorted out soon.

now i still have the motivation to do work... but i wonder how long would it last. whether i can sustain this and if i wont let everyone down for te big exam next year. i realised that i really have to keep the end in mind, which is mainly A levels, among others things... there are a lot of things in life that i wish are can be perfect or can turn out perfectly, but after these years i realised sometimes you just have to give up some things for others, no matter how painful it can be...

ok. i need to go the house of a colleague of my dad's... gtg(: